In the waiting room now for another CT scan. After having so many of these scans I am almost embarrassed at how much anxiety they caused me. And to be clear, it's not the scan itself but the results that make me feel that way. Scanxiety. I don't really have a good reason to be more nervous about this scam than any other that I have had, but I am. I have had good scans for as long as I can remember, and all my lab markers (CEA) have been in normal ranges for a long long time, but still I am uneasy. It's probably because of some new pain I have been experiencing that is making things difficult, I'll spare you the details, but it has me worried there might be something new.
We will find out, and whatever the outcome we will face it head on like we always do!
As of now treatment continues as it has. The last chemo was particularly rough as I was hooked to my take home pump over Thanksgiving. Huge thank you to my in-laws and Kelly for still shuttling me a meal as I hid in my room for the holiday weekend. I know I am a bit of an outlier but I'm not a big Thanksgiving food guy, so it wasn't a huge loss for me, but I did miss doing things with the girls for the day and celebrating with them. Fortunately, it looks like my chemo schedule will be slightly more forgiving for Christmas.
We continue to wait for a transplant donor, and in the meantime kick around other surgical possibilities. It's all a bit of a waiting game at this point.
The girls and the dog are thoroughly enjoying the light later of snow we got recently. The dog particularly has been asking to go outside just to kick up and eat snow.
Try to lean hard on the Lord. Know you are a special man, great father and husband. As hard as everything is ... you have no choice but to fight for your family. Have a nice holiday season brother! Kevin N